TOXICITY

You think your eyes hold love
But she knows it's twisted and curved
The kind that makes her heart ache.

You think your touch is gentle

But she knows the abhorrence it disguises

The kind that makes her skin ache.

You think your embrace is pacifying

But she feels her bones crack with every turn

The kind that makes her soul ache.

But she hides the agony

With the satin scarf

And the dazed smoke

And chooses you

With the smithereens of her soul.

                   - Kasturi Banerjee

MADE YOU UP

Black

like the night sky without any stars 

like the ink spilt over a page, darkening it

like the black hole, consuming even a hint of light. 

I see black when I close my eyes

no, not the kind you think

the kind that feels surreal

closing in

and choking you

and consuming you. 

He stood 

all dressed in white, with a smile 

that can collapse heaven

and that can crumble hell

and that can rip my heart apart and make me bleed. 

Is it real? 

I ask myself

Is he

a ghost 

a figment

a lovesong 

a part of my soul.

Is he as human as I am?

Every time I open my eyes I feel alive, just enough to breathe.

- Kasturi Banerjee

5 Incredible TV Series to Watch During Self Isolation

Self-isolation/social distancing can get monotonous and quite boring but here are 5 TV series (all of the different genres so there is something for everyone) to help you survive!

1. Schitt's Creek
    Genre: Comedy 

    Platform: Netflix

    Plot: A rich family suddenly goes broke and the chaos that follows. 

This show is hands down one of the most hilarious shows that I have ever watched. With its unique characters and unpredictable turns in the plot, this show will definitely lighten your mood during this difficult time.

2. Good Girls
    Genre: Drama

    Platform: Netflix
    Plot: Three mothers frustrated with their lives and caught in a financial trap decide to rob a bank.                 What can go wrong?

This show escalates really quickly and leaves you wanting more by the end. The twists and turns that the show takes will leave you wondering how far is someone willing to go to save themselves?

3. Servant

    Genre: Horror

    Platform: Apple TV+

    Plot: A family mourning their child invests in a Reborn doll to help their grief. Things quickly turn bizarre and disturbing when they hire a nanny to look after the doll.

The horror is really subtle and creeps in slowly in this one. This show has a very unique plot and you, the watcher, has to piece the puzzle together. If this doesn't sell itself, let me tell that it is produced by M. Night Shyamalan so you expect nothing but sheer brilliance.

4. The Sinner
    Genre: Crime thriller

    Platform: Netflix
    Plot: A detective tries to puzzle murders committed by ordinary people and the reason behind their heinous acts. Each season revolves around a different murder case.

This series will make you question the cruel nature and psyche of human beings. By the end of each episode, you will be gasping for breath.

5. Little Things

    Genre: Romance
    Platform: Netflix

    Plot: A couple living in a fast-paced Mumbai city tries to navigate their relationship, career and family.

This show is one of the most realistic representations of a relationship that will show you the happiness in the little things in a relationship.

Dearest Soulmate.

Dearest Soulmate, 

I am in the opposite corner of the world wide awake, listening to One Last Breath by Creed. 

"Maybe six feel ain't so far down" that's my favorite line from that song. If you stand long enough at the edge of the high, staring down at the abyss, it isn't so petrifying anymore.

And I have been standing at the edge for quite sometime now.  

Do I jump? is the question. Or do I keep standing waiting for you to show up and talk me out of it? 

They say that the universe keep bringing the soulmates together over time. Funny how all those little insignificant moments leads to the big one. 

You maybe sound asleep unaware of this utter mess you will meet in the future. But let me tell you something, soulmate.

I like my brokenness. 

I hope you do too. 

MISERY

Shall I sleep in his bed
so the moon whispers to me,
the secrets of the night.

Layers and layers of skin,
entangled in his memories,
caught in the act of love.

Sing to me, I ask the moon
the mysteries his eyes behold,
the sorrow his heart harbours,
the life that flutters.

I close my eyes and the night descends
closing in, trapping me,
gravitating towards oblivion.
When will this longing end?

Does he get you on a soul level?

Sure he knows you get nightmares.
But does he really know how terrified you feel in that moment?

Of course he tells you it's going to be okay.
But you and I both know it is not going to be okay.
Does he tell you that?
Does he tell you the truth and still holds your hand?
Or does he rubs your back and goes back to oblivion?

He tells you to socialise.
But does he know that you get anxiety among people and how you would prefer solitude over company any day?

He tells you "You don't have to be alone. I'm here."
But does he know that deep down you love your solitude?

He is aware that you are sad.
But does he really know that you have a sad soul and what is weighing it down?
What kind of shackles bind your soul to this sadness that will last forever.

He sees the anger in your eyes.
But does he see the hurt behind it?
Does he embrace your chaos and help you find the inner calm?

He tells you to stop crying.
But does he know that is the only way you have ever coped up with grief?

He knows you read.
But does he really know WHY you read?
Does he know that a good book makes your soul dance?

Does HE make your soul dance?

DOES HE GET YOU ON A SOUL LEVEL?

Can ideas really change the world?

From a very young age, I have been hearing this sentence "Ideas can change the world." but then one day I read a book and realised that someone had an idea and that someone did something about that idea and that's what really changed the world.

That is all what this article is about but our education system demands elaboration so I will elaborate.

You see, everyday millions and millions of ideas get forgotten because no one is working on it. No one is changing the idea into action.
Let me explain this in a more retable way. Few months back my friend said to me "She should be with me." and now they are two of the happiest people I know. If he let his idea stay an idea then nothing would have changed.

You remember how Rachel from FRIENDS won the maid of honour competition by drawing from personal experience?
So now time for a personal experience.
4 years ago I thought I want to change the world so I made this blog believing that it will contribute to the change.

Can you imagine if those millions and millions ideas were in action how revolutionary changes would be happening this very moment?
So you see it isn't really the idea that changes the world. It's the actions we take for the them.

So if you have an idea, make it work.
And change the world for the better.